Reclusive Ruminations: A Confession

So, good news. I spent most of my new years and the past few weeks finishing up my new book, A Child of Dust, and finishing up its final draft. It was when I finished the second draft that I realized something - A Child of Dust (yes, that is the final title in the end) is... Continue Reading →

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Reclusive Ruminations: The Thief

The final member of the Trinity - the trio of villains in Children of Dust - and the final obstacle for the protagonist, Saramas, is perhaps the most straightforward villain of the three, though the extent of his villainy, as it were, is, to my mind, still up for debate. To understand his motives, one... Continue Reading →

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Reclusive Ruminations: The Warrior

In my latest story, Children of Dust (working title only), a tale of warriors and wizards in the afterlife, the villains form a pact that gives them powers beyond those of the other revenants in the setting of Nostrand. The Trinity is composed of three undead who decide to do away with the established order... Continue Reading →

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Reclusive Ruminations: The Mage

As I look to wrap up the story of Children of Dust, I'm already thinking of my second draft, and the changes I'd like to make to the story, namely giving a little more spotlight to the villains. Much of the tale is told from the perspective of the main character, Saramas, and while his introspective, philosophical... Continue Reading →

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The Dungeon Realm, part 5 – False Eternities

Note: This is the final part of the chapter, the Dungeon Realm. Naturally, the story continues after this, with this dungeon realm being the first part of a larger arc involving lesser gods establishing planar gateways to the physical realm of Amarith... but even that is secondary to the truth of Byss and the Four... Continue Reading →

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The Dungeon Realm, part 4: Trapped in Time

Author's note: On we go. Getting close to the end of this chapter now. Thank you for reading, everyone. --   'Things do seem to end in fights wherever we go, don't they?' This came from another voice, as a lithe, athletic figure stepped from the smoke. She was taller than the Serpent Sisters, but... Continue Reading →

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The Dungeon Realm, part 3: A Battle in the Dark

A note before we continue. Thank you to everyone who has taken an interest in this little excerpt of my new story. It is very much appreciated. On we go! -- He looked around this place, this valley inside the mountain, and they looked around at the gravestones. 'The warlock was here, examining the stones,'... Continue Reading →

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The Dungeon Realm, Part 2: The Curse of Dairon Khan

'We're wasting time here,' said Giermund. 'Kaiden might well be within, and in need of aid.' Landred stirred from his brooding, realizing that Giermund was right. Gallian spoke a single word, and orbs of light drifted above Landred and Giermund. 'I assume you two will be taking the lead,' he said wryly. Landred grinned. Lori... Continue Reading →

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Prelude to the Dungeon Realm

I think it's time I workshopped a story here... or at least, a chapter. The following is part of my new story, Incanta, which, true to form, is turning out far longer than I imagined it would. originally, Incanta would have three parts: The first that I've written revolves around one of the four most powerful people... Continue Reading →

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Reclusive Rumination: Ambition and Anger

I have been rather remiss in updating my blog as of late. Consumed by exhaustion and frustration with work, I have, regardless, been turning over some advice that I received when I was much younger, and which has guided my steps to the present moment. The advice was 'to make the best of what you... Continue Reading →

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Reclusive Ruminations: Elegies of Innocence

All things drown in silence. Memory is subjective by the flawed nature of what we are, and would erase our sorrows and create triumphs and justifications for the shadows of our failures. If i am to give voice to every one of my failures, i would be hoarse. Were I to speak of every perceived... Continue Reading →

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Reclusive Ruminations – Dreaming of Life

“You walk the steps of your life, and always that dream beckons, that dream waits. You don’t know if it can ever be made real. You don’t know that, even should you somehow stumble upon it, you won’t find it less than it was, less than it could have been – if only you could... Continue Reading →

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Reclusive Ruminations: Children of Dust

“Man stands face to face with the irrational. He feels within him his longing for happiness and for reason. The absurd is born of this confrontation between the human need and the unreasonable silence of the world.” ― Albert Camus, The Myth of Sisyphus and other Essays Lately, I've started work on a story called Children of... Continue Reading →

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Reclusive Ruminations: An Eldritch Turn

Today, someone asked me whether I possessed a sense of humanity... in the sense of a feeling of camaraderie with everyone, all over the world, in search of that elusive goal – a happy life. I can't speak for the truth of the matter, but I like to think that my eyes lit up at... Continue Reading →

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Reclusive Ruminations – Recurrence

"Death in the dream world will send your soul wandering for all eternity, Demon." - Alucard, Castlevania: Symphony of the Night -- You know, you think the strangest things when you decide to start playing Castlevania: Symphony of the Night. Lately, I've considered the irony of the opinion I had that humanity's relentless futility – in... Continue Reading →

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Reclusive Ruminations : Hopes and Philosophies

After creating a world where humanity has all but died, I found myself writing a weird throwaway paragraph of a strange, frail being, born of magic, born of fear, desire, anger and hope, picking up a crown, covered in ashes. Despite myself, I wrote a tale where, without needing to, I created a new Adam. Perhaps I was hoping that the new humanity would prove better than what came before.

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Reclusive Ruminations – Stories and Sanity

My current silence on the blog is due to me dividing my time between two stories. The first is my big vampire revenge/war fantasy, with seven main characters, each in different parts of the country in which this takes place. It's my Song of Ice and Fire, I suppose. There are so many narrative threads... Continue Reading →

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Fragment 5 – Legacy

I wonder if the only beautiful things left in the world are the things that cannot be contemplated. I wonder what the void is. I wonder what this 'nothing' might be, when people say that they feel it. – (Three months ago) Landred Vhael walked in silence in a cavern. Paleflies – little creatures that... Continue Reading →

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Incanta – Fragment 3: The Voice of Madness

The shadows beyond the door were deep and dark; they seemed almost alive. They seemed to writhe. Mara bit her lower lip, wondering if this was a good idea. She took a deep breath. Her diadem glowed with a soft light, and the shadows retreated, momentarily. 'We were wondering when you would come,' said a... Continue Reading →

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Incanta – Fragment 2: The Dreamers

Silence fell on Nothrond, overwhelming and absolute. The moon was a crescent slash in the sky, a bleeding radiance above the crags of the mountain of Aernach which loomed over the fortress like a guardian, watching over the Necrohol. The 'Great Shadow' people called it – home to strange plants and stranger creatures – one... Continue Reading →

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Incanta – Fragment 1: The Necromancer

Since I'm having so much fun writing this, why don't I share... -- ...Following the establishment of the so-called Arch-Cities, the magi-elite plumbed the ancient ruins surrounding them, seeking records of their old Melechi tyrants. It was thought that this was an attempt to recover artefacts of similar power to the Incanta – the fabled... Continue Reading →

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Reclusive Ruminations: Lost Again

I have dwelt in the echoes of her silence, muted words rebounding off the white bulwarks she built around the heart - an old dream covered in hoarfrost. This place knows no decay, but death dwells cocooned in silence, walls bleed at the gentlest of whispers, the assurances of reprisal breaks the perfect stillness, and... Continue Reading →

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Reclusive Ruminations: Of Blood and Souls

In my last post, I spoke about dragging my feet with ending Grayden's story in the Valharrow saga of my books, and how I had skipped ahead to write another story, set in another land on the same world. For the first time since I started writing it, I examined the nature of the story.... Continue Reading →

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Fragment 45 – The End of Peace

I wondered if there was a bit of arrogant self-righteousness that had crept into my thinking, reinforced by the very real stupidity undeniably abundant in the world. Of course it was, and worse, I justified it by saying that my disappointment hurt no one but myself. And maybe that’s true… but the fact is that... Continue Reading →

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Fragment 44: Symmetries of Silence

It's time. The world no longer needs me. I watched Birana's ascension today. She looks so proud. The Order's Division Heads seem to support her completely, perhaps knowing that she has travelled at my side all these years. I am aware, however, that creating different avenues of power within the Order will give rise to... Continue Reading →

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Fragment 43: Rebellions

I wish I had said more to Birana, but when I told her the Truth, she seemed... lost. I suppose I can understand that. It remained but a suspicion in my heart up until the moment I told her, but as soon as I did, I knew that there was no longer any questioning it.... Continue Reading →

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Fragment 42: Prodigal Sons

Did you know that this city is arrayed in a circle? I can only suspect what the original architects and planners envisioned for this place. Though I have been to the archives, and read how Valharrow was once called the city of Ritual... I remember little of my studies in Cloudrend. Something about it is... Continue Reading →

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Fragment 41: Vortithiryx

I can no longer keep my melancholia at bay – the truth is that my heart broke in that final, fateful battle, all those years ago. And these strange dreams of mine are haunting me. Every time I look at the sky, I see it there. I cannot fathom it. If it is truly there,... Continue Reading →

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Fragment 40: Acclimation

I walked to the point of the Tower where you died today. Near the foundation stone, where we built a future on your grave. You won us this world, and saved us from the World that Never Was. Everyone owes everything we have to you, and what you sacrificed. There are days when I questioned... Continue Reading →

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Fragment 39: A Return to Viridia

My time is almost over. Birana is a fine young woman, and the Order listens to her almost as much as they listen to me. I, in the meantime, have grown more distracted. My dreams delve into the past, into the final days of the old war, when Audren walked at my side. I wonder... Continue Reading →

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Fragment 38: A Mystery Revealed

There is no doubt in my mind that the Legion of Streggan will prove our undoing if we cannot stop them. I have seen the power that shapes their madness – an eye, embedded in a wall, staring wildly from its prison of stone. It whispers madness and fury. It calls children out of their... Continue Reading →

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Fragment 37: The Beginning of the End

It's time I admitted something. I have been running away. All my life, I feel like I have embroiled myself in conflict after conflict, from the 53rd Battalion to the Order of Saint Audren. In many ways, I have not been content unless I was at war with something or someone. Gods and cults and... Continue Reading →

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Fragment 36: Crossroads of Purpose

There are some things I can't tell anyone... not even Birana. For instance, I still remember what you told me at the very end. What no stories will tell, what no one will sing of. How you saw a great golden beast in the sky, looking down on us as we rode to battle the... Continue Reading →

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Fragment 35: A Door to Emptiness, A Door to Eternity

'Words willing, wounding, wanting. Fires, faltering, flickering, fading, dreams, despairing, departed and done.' Birana heard these words today, as we cut down an elder demon. Chillingly, these do not sound like a warning – it seems more of a statement, and one with a disturbing hint of finality to it. I cannot help but feel... Continue Reading →

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Fragment 34 – The Secret of the Darkshrine

The Legion's madness has begun to manifest in strange ways. I saw two score of them, ambling towards the city. They were not lucid. They seemed no more conscious than sleepwalkers, shuffling steps bearing them towards the Tower of Dedication. Birana and I stood before them, swords raised, yet they did not notice us, did... Continue Reading →

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Fragment 33 – Lonely Roads

The Legion of Streggan. That's what they've taken to calling themselves – the men and women who rose in opposition to us, believing in the World That Was. The name doesn't even make sense anymore – it was something that emerged as a result of fear of what Rykisedek would do to the world! It... Continue Reading →

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Fragment 32: Vessels of an Empty Silence

In the silence, I remember a time when all I cared for was the mystery of universe. To unravel it, thread by thread, to understand the tenets of existence, to live free of ignorance. I dreamed of the wisdom of the sages, but instead lived a life of endless battle. I've lived as much by... Continue Reading →

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Fragment 31 – A Dream Worth Fighting For

Every day, I set out into the city, into the wilds beyond, the Order at my back. Together we try to stave off the madness of a thousand years of the god-beast's dreams. Every day we return, exhausted but triumphant, the hilts of our blades wet with sweat, our faces flushed but happy. But the... Continue Reading →

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Fragment 30 – The Shadow of Fear

“Sent falling upwards to an amnesiac heaven, where the bones of winter lay stretched across the cold sky, glittering with the pieces of oblivion moaning their truths to those of us who trudge on with the memory of dead footsteps, plaguing our waking moments.” I transcribe these words exactly as I heard them – intoned... Continue Reading →

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Fragment 29: Elegy’s Whisper

The Wilding Wall was difficult to dispel. It took every screed of energy that we had, and more than a few mages burned their magic away forever. No one regrets their loss, however. It was an atrocity that had to be torn down. All that remains is to hunt down the fragments of the wall... Continue Reading →

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Fragment 28: A World Without Truth

No matter how sincerely you try, there are times when your thoughts just won't reach others. At times I ascend to the top of the tower and merely look up at the sky, beyond the eternal storm-clouds looming over Valharrow. I find clarity in the distance, in the blue skies beyond the troubles breaking over... Continue Reading →

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Fragment 27 – Unchained

I remember the early days of the Order. Everyone looked to me to lead them, but I was in no state to lead. The others saw someone willing to put the well-being of others ahead of their own safety, as I sought out demons, monsters... anything born of the Wilding Wall was my prey. I... Continue Reading →

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